[PoT] Wanting, PG, Angst, FujiRyo/TezuRyo

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Title: Wanting
Fandom: Prince of Tennis
Pairing: FujiRyo, TezuRyo
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Not mine.

Why missing Fuji isn't enough. Ryoma POV.
[Companion to Having.]


Wanting
by meitachi

I miss you.

I knew I would. Your endless smiles, your voice, your character… You were so unique. No one was quite like you. They couldn’t manage to be as wicked and as innocent at the same time. They couldn’t smile endlessly in the face of everything. They couldn’t make my breath hitch and my stomach flip.

Not quite the way you did, Fuji.

I miss the way you would tease me, even in public, and I would squirm away from your touch. I miss hearing your soft breaths as you slept. I miss the bright flash of your eyes and knowing I was the only one you would look at that way, behind your endless smiles.

You were so…

Perfect.

It hurt. A lot. Because I wasn’t. Because you never seemed to need me the way I needed you. I could make you moan and I could make you writhe and once I even made you scream. But I could never make you cry.

Fuji-senpai never opens up.

Sometimes he reminds me of you, you know. And sometimes when he touches me, I think of you. Of your eyes, your smiles, your breath, your touch…

I miss you.

What if I hadn’t left? Would we still be together? Would we still be laughing and kissing and playing tennis when there was nothing better to do?

Would you still smile at me without saying anything?

He doesn’t talk about what you and I used to have. I’m glad. Because he doesn’t understand.

But do you?

I miss you, Fuji.

But he…wants me.

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Notes:
I don't know if I like this one as much. The problem with writing something good (::cough::egomuch?::cough::) the first time is that you never know if you can live up to it the second. So...-.-;;

Wanting was written the same way Having was: on notebook paper in one sitting and edited slightly when typed-up. I don't know if Ryoma-muse managed to clamp onto me as firmly as Fuji-muse did, but I hope I managed to get his feelings across.

Don't expect a Tezuka POV. I think I'm done with this. It's traumatized me enough. Though if Fuji-muse really won't relent, there may be an actual fic sequel where Fuji or Ryoma finally takes the first step towards reconciliation. ...but don't count on it.